lost

Letting go...i just realize tt i hav not let go of my 1st real love.... Aidil.. but im truly trying my best to let go of him..

As egoistic as i can be..i realizes it nw.. tt all my rships failed is nt entirely due to the guy.. it was also due to me.. i was the problem..i hav not let go of tt love for him.. maeb tts the reason y i cud not love amirul fully or as sincerely as i can..


if i was given a 2nd chance..i would like to apologize to amirul.. n be his again.. but i noe it wont happen..theres no means of contacting him nw... nth at all.. so0o i will just let it go.. if really its meant to be..then it is meant to be..

As for aidil.. i am really2 letting the feeling go.. he is happy wif her.. even though i am angry bout evriting..i just hav to let it go in order to move on n frm nw on take it slow..really2 slow.. wadeva it is.. if there is one sincere person in tis world who will want to have me.. be it... ill just let tings go wif the flow..

for nw my head is hurting ahaha... dunnoelah..my guy boss put tis incent tingy for buddhist prayers or sumting... evrieone in the office cant stand it.. (not being racist or aniting.. i still respect tt it is his religion and is his believe.) the office is air-conditioned of course..so0o the smell sticks around for a very long tyme n it rides up to the head...


moving on moving on moving on..


i just want someone who would be my fren.. n will be an honest and sincere fren to me.. (other than izzah.. i tink u shud noe wad kind of friend im talking about)