Always a bridesmaid and never a bride...

but at the end she became a bride..


will that happen to me??


ive always been there for my frens...weneva they have probs wif bf..always the matchmaker for ppl

n indirectly...i help ppl find their perfect match n tt is after they noe me and u noe wad...

but i can never find one for myself...


n freak...in 1 mths time or rather in 29 more daes... ill be 20...no more teen...haiyo...y must i get old so0o fast..alot of ppl say age is just a number
yes... but age is also ur maturity level..live up to ur age.. ppl respect u...if u dun... ppl look down on u..haiz...



anyways,looking for a perm job nw..3 more weeks till i end sch..seriously,to me it doesnt matter hw i score..as long as i graduate its fine wif me..tinking of getting a job then clear debts.. den enrol in cosmoprof or the one at far east n oso enrol for license..

oh yarh..gg to try to lose weight..like seriously..n im nt kidding... will try...
been tinking of playing soccer back..or any sports game uh... haha... i dunnoe where to start though..ahha...maeb wif jogging..ahhahaha..really nid to start to get back my stamina....


im kinda losing my appetite now..i dunnoe y... bt the weird ting is i only get hungry like late 6 pm or 7 pm
then will force myself to eat at 2 plus am or 3 am..just so0o tt i dun vomit the next morning..but i wont sleep after eating...


haha..just like todae... did nt sleep at alll
yest woke up at 10 plus..till nw... hahah... will be havg sch later at 3.30 pm... hmm.. i just want sch to be over...

anyways read up on sum stuff about the girls system.. i tink i shud go for a check up... i mean the feedback is saying tt its normal to have the pain... but till the extend tt i cant walk wen i have the pain is too extreme...

tis few daes.. ive been tinking bout him..especially after wad aisyah says... y was i so0o dumb to let go of him... n i dun tink theres any ways for me to get to him back..unless its a miracle..

been reading paula's blog.. i guess wad she quoted is kind true... i hope it i.. n i will find my way back into his arms..

hopefully..

nw suddenly, i feel tt i shud have gotten married to him tt time.. hhaa.. at least ill be stuck wif him even if it was an unplanned wedding... ahaha...dreams n hopes..


oh yarh tt day i dreamt or dreamboy again..
o dreamboy where art thou dreamboy??
hahaha

i still have no idea who he is..
is he d love of my life or is he just a guardian in my dreams to lead me to the right path in my
dreams tt can be a reality..

signing off..